05-20-05

Six years ago today, I woke up nervous and excited in New York City. It was my wedding day, and I was ready to marry my best friend, and the person who talked me into marriage when I had spent my whole life claiming I would never wed.

Feeling a little nervous...

I thought today about what my life would have been like if I'd never met you, Nate, and everything seemed all wrong.

I'd have never been introduced to the color brown (which looks surprisingly lovely on someone with dark hair and dark eyes, contrary to what I might have thought - a big pile of dukey). Hmmmm, I may not have been introduced to colors at all. Isn't it funny that the color blind man is the one who talked me out of my uniform of black?

I'd have never stayed in Texas, and Texas seems to like me. Although Texas and my hair seem to have a love/hate relationship. And I'm hoping that sometime this year I'll be able to say, "I'd have never seen the Alamo..." San Antonio, anyone?

I'd have never learned to cook meat. I think it's a valuable skill to have.

I'd have never understood how to love me very much, and therefore, it wouldn't have been a big deal for me to love others more than myself. I feel like everyone else is getting a really good deal here now that I do.

I'd have never been tickled as much or more than I was by my dad, and therefore, I wouldn't have had such amazing memories of him that I almost cry every time.

I'd have never found anyone else who makes me laugh so hard I could literally pee every single day. Being with you keeps me looking young and fresh, and I never get tired of making you perform all your funny impressions and stories for anyone I can think of.

I'd have never learned how strong I was, or the fact that I can do some serious spiritual battle.

I'd have never had my heart broken so badly that only God could fix it. Which means I'd have never been able to know God as the Father who can fix anything. Which means I'd have never been able to stand here and say that I and my family are a miracle. Which means I'd have never been able to be an encouragement to someone else, just by looking at me. WOW.

I'd have never had a Milo, and he is the most incredible treasure. My two men are the two loves of my life, which makes my heart pretty darn full.

And most importantly, I'd have never found someone whose name rhymed so well with mine, therefore making us the most sickeningly adorable couple ever. Nate and Kate. Isn't that great? Good thing they went on a date. They're rarely irate. Just can't wait... for a lifetime more of amazing memories.

I could go on and on and on, because my puzzle would never make sense without its most important piece. I love you and am so thankful that we've had six amazing years. Here's to a million more.

Happy Anniversary!

So young. Was that only six years ago?